thirteen. Nashuha

Hi. This is my bestfriend Nashuha. Obviously.
You can call her loud, hyperactive, easy to talk to, but the highlight here is SHE HAS A VERY BAD TEMPER. You wouldn't wanna get too close when she's having one of her mood swings. trust me, i of all people would know.

When you see us together, you might think that it's always smooth sailing. Well, you know nothing. We've been thru a lot of ups and downs, and it has brought a closer because between us there are no secrets and we dont have hard feelings for each other. she's my zen place.

Nashuha you see, she's very very weird. she talks about the most bizarre stuff, you wont even get her. She has this stupid way of talking in circles and not getting straight to the point but somehow, i get her. She doesn't give a shit about how i feel when she talks to me and that's what i admire most. cause she's the type who's open-minded and tells me whenever i look like shit or whenever i behave as if i'm out of place.

i made this promise to myself (eleh) that once i'm ruler of the world, i'd still have nashuha as my bestfriend cause noone can replace her cause she's too fucking special and irreplacable and most of all, one of a kind.
you see we met six years ago at this summer camp in perth. since then, we lost contact and met up again last year.

Roughly i've known her from a stick thin little girl, always with her pink barbie bag and pink sweater, to a thin teenager with small boobs, to an even pudgy and fat teenager still with slightly bigger boobs :)
Nashuha has seen me grown from a little girl who's really down to earth to a pudgy and fat teenager with big boobs, and this year an even pudgy and fat teenager with even bigger boobs. hahhhhhhaaahhh. whatevorrrr la kan. i used to be stick thing once, long ago. god said that if i was still stick thin i would conquer the universe because i have a fucking big faculty so he prevented it from happening. God is Great.

You see even thou sometimes we pendam perasaan with each other, we'll always find out. Best thing bout her is, she actually lets me do what i want, when i want as long as i stick to the books. she gets mad when i do stupid things, but hey if i was a girl who wouldn't do stupid things and would settle for less, would i be the syira you know now? no right. sure we share every single boy problem we have. we dont always agree on the same thing but our advices are always taken into consideration and i know that she knows this too.

You see, we might not agree on some things. Even more things i expect when it comes to the future. We adapt and change to everything right? We're only human afterall. I hope, that we wont grow apart and still be as crazy as we already are cause i love nashuha and yes, noone is good enough to replace her. TO THE BOYS, NONE OF YOU ARE GONNA BE GOOD ENOUGH FOR HER CAUSE SHE FUCKING DESSERVES BETTER.

Note to nashuha if you're reading this, please know what you'll always have a special place in my heart and i will always love and miss you wherever you are. I'm always gonna be here for you even if we grow apart. Come on, who are the boys kidding? We're too good for them boys out there. Am I right?


I hope, that by now. You'd be crying your friggin eyes out.
WITH LOVE, your bitch Syira.

twelve. Dilemma

I'm just saying this hypothetically.

Let's just say you have a boyfriend whom you love so much and one day you found out that he was CHEATING on you. And not just cheating on anyone, but your best-fucking-friend. Wouldn't you be fucking furious about it? You told your boyfriend that you wanted to break up. He gave a really lame excuse about what had happened and said it wasn't true. You know, all that shit. And he promised that he won't do it again and stuff, he won't talk to other girls. What would you do? Would you give him the opportunity to make everything right? Would you give him that second chance?
Come on people, i need response.

Remember, i'm just saying this hypothetically :)



Loves, nashuha

eleven. Starlight

Oh gosh, it has really been a long time huh? I guess blogs are just for me during the holidays. I seldom use the computer now. Not that i've been studying. I know this news is old but still i have to talk about it. Rest in Peace, Michael Jackson. Muslim or not, you're still #1 to everyone :D Too much has happened and i just don't know where to start. You know what, i'd rather not talk about any of 'em.

There's a party going on tonight. Not exactly a "party" party, but a dinner party. My grandmother's older brother, which makes him my uhh datuk saudara i think, is turning 80. And he's having like a makan-makan at Flamingo Hotel. Wardrobe malfunction, i don't know what to wear :S

I haven't even started on my Kajian Sejarah Tempatan and it was due like what, 3 weeks ago? Yeah. My teacher's so pissed and she wants everyone to pass up by Monday. I really have to start working on it mannn. I've got rina's thumbdrive with me now, and she gave me the permission to just copy paste her work. And this was like a week ago and still, tak bukak langsung the thumbdrive. You see? You see how lazy i am. Haihh.

Most of my friends are at Kem Motivasi this weekend. Even my boyfriend is! I'm so bored. I think abang's phone kena rampas by the school kot. We've not been contacting each other for quite some time now.

i miss you so so much, abang.
no shit

Love, nashuha